Always in search of obtaining a closer, more fruitful relationship with God, I try to read spiritual books. There is always a book on the bedside table that has something to do with spirituality - whether it's a biography of a saint or other religious person, a book on prayer or a bible study...something along those lines. I have been reading "The Lamb's Supper" by Scott Hahn. It's a great book and you should definitely read it! He mentions a book called "The Spiritual Combat" by Rev. Scupoli (and others apparently) so I looked it up on Amazon and the Kindle version was $.99!
I am only to chapter 2 on this one, but something really struck me. I can read all I want hoping that this act alone will bring me closer to God, but if I don't ever act on those hopes then nothing will ever change. Just reading isn't going to cut it for me. I've had these thoughts before and have always decided I would work on how I treat others especially those in my own home, but I also realize that I have to work on self. Meaning, stop concerning myself with myself :)
At this same time, I am participating in a 33 day consecration to the Blessed Mother. The first week has been concentrating on the idea of separating yourself from the material world and I think these prayers and reflections every day have helped me get to this point.
This morning, I decided that as a challenge to myself today, I would not speak the word "I". Usually when I use this word, it's because I'm complaining about something I don't like: "I can't believe how much laundry I have to do today." (used twice in that sentence)... or something I want: "I wish we had a basement." I think that both of these sentences are selfish...you may disagree, but I think the constant use of the word "I" in these types of scenarios are spiritually destructive. Another example I can think of is giving my opinion: "That newscaster is obnoxious." I am going to really try and live out this challenge every day - my opinions really don't matter (unless I'm asked I guess), nor does it really matter what I don't like or what I want.
Ok, not trying to get too deep on ya here, but I want you all to know that even adults struggle with spiritual relationships with God and with others. We all need to work on it. I hope that the links I include in posts like this will work 10-20 years from now when I know you'll be reading this blog every day! heehee